We are who we are!

Hi~
I think I'm gonna offend a shitload of people with this post. WOWNESS!

To startoff, I don't normally call people names but some people are just plain bimbotic.
I admit; I was once like them too.

I wanted to stand out from others, I wanted to be special.
I know that I'm not pretty, so I tried hard to improve on my looks; I didn't want to be 'just another face'.
I was an anti-social person (still am, actually) but that makes me look like a freak, so I tried to be hyper( actually I am sometimes crazy- hyper but that's only occasionally) so that I'll be 'accepted' by the groupies or whatever you call them.
When people didn't seem to like me, I reassured myself that hey, it's they themselves that got a prob; it ain't my fault that they didn't like my distinctive personality( *pukes*).


Why was I like that?
People called me geek, nerd, ugly behind my back. Even though they didn't dare say it in my face, I knew. As a typical girl....


OF COURSE MY FEELINGS WERE BLOODY HURT!


And I tried to change myself... Do what they like to do and act like I like it.
Super awkward and I was deeply unhappy...in the end, I isolated myself. Weakling? Maybe I am. But I would not be someone I am not.

There's also the people who I think are pretty mean: they ostracise and put down others. They are what I call bimbotic(applicable to males too).

They LOVE to say things like " To be nice and good is BORING. I am NOT like that! :D "
Sounds like someone wants to be a jailbait. But to break it down into simpler terms, they meant that they are more special than us 'typical sheep'.

Whenever I hear these kinda things I have a ready set of obscenities ready to be unleashed.
Heh, I admit-the reason why I am angry is partly because I WAS ONE OF THE VICTIMS.

Once, this very pretty girl asked me if I had my math book with me. Unfortunately, I had it with me, so I lent it to her. Then she said to her friend: "see, I told you geeks would have it." then flashes a 'I am so smart and beautiful' smirk, flipping her hair to emphasize it.

Angry not? What if this happens to you?? If you are unflustered by this, I think you need an emotion check with your psychiatrist.

To correct her underdeveloped brain, she meant nerds. Geeks are people who are "a computer expert or enthusiast" OR "a carnival performer who performs sensationally morbid or disgusting acts" OR "a weird or dislikable person, especially one who is perceived to be overly intellectual".

I fit into none of these categories, unless you're calling me an anime geek. Okay, so now you know.

She's one of the people who trives in attention. Not that it's a bad thing, I like attention too. I mean, WHO WOULDN'T???

BUT.

Are we all compromising our true nature just to please others? She is one of the others who would purposely say 'smartass' stuff during class, purposely be mean to others (put them down like what she did to me-and that was only a mild case), wear her dress like she don't know how to properly wear it.

I have good friends that are like that- and people call them " Ah Bengs and Ah Lians" but I know that that's just the way they are.However, they don't put down others to make themselves feel better. I love them, coz they're super funny, do crazy (but legal) stuff and are basically 'chill' people.


However, in the case for some, like that girl, they purposely act like that.
That's not them; they're going against their own nature. How did I know?

They follow.
They seek approval from their friends and people around them first before doing things like making a new friend(Yes, there are people like that!!!).
They do things exactly the same as what their so called cool(er) friends are doing.

And you would hear alot saying that they're unhappy, coz they're tired of hiding behind a mask all the time. They feel lonely, coz 'nobody understands them'.

But that's because they're never allowed others to know the real them.
Why are they changing themselves? To fit in? To win friends? Friends who like their 'mask' and not who they are?

I'D SAY, STOP THIS MADNESS!

You are who you are, you're beautiful as a person (personality faults and all). Everybody is unique in their own way, and it is IMPOSSIBLE to have another you.

So stop it! Stop trying to be someone you're not!

And stop thinking that you're superior to someone else! We are all humans. We all eat, shit and die!



PS: I am a hypocrite through and through. Don't be afraid to flame me. :D